the bajan went on vacation to the dominican republic last saturday. he is scheduled to return today. before he left, he asked that i give him a recent picture of myself, since we wouldn't be able to meaningfully communicate while gone.
this is the first time where i really feel the absence of a person of the opposite sex who is not a family member or a friend. it has only been a week but it feels like ages since i've spoken to this person. i suppose in the past i wouldn't have let myself get to this point. i was perfectly content staggering conversations and interactions - never wanted to get too close.
where did that girl go? does she promise not to come back? this feels more honest...
full disclosure: i'm slightly apprehensive about his return. here i am missing him, but what if he had a change of heart? this is the longest we've gone without speaking to each other - our contact is usually daily. this is super new. either of us could walk away without leaving the other very hurt. either of us could meet someone else at any time.
neuroses. but i'm going to roll with them.
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